& I know thats usually a big deal, right? I mean we all have seen at least one episode of ‘My super Sweet Sixteen’ and as much as I’d love to have one of them, part of me would feel terrible making my parents spend that much on a birthday that really isn’t that important. The girls at school usually have some type of party too, that is still pretty big and expensive, but only their closest friends are invited. But then again, how exactly would I know? I’ve never been invited to one. (Unless you count Jeline’s, but I couldnt go because I had food poisioning the day before and it was just bad (which also makes me kindof vain because I guess technically the whole statement before this is inaccurate.))

  Anywho, with the economy the way it is and my father being one of the many people who dont have a job, it looks like 16 just wont be a big deal. I’m still going for my permit test tomorrow and we’re having some family up for cake and ice cream, but I’m not having friends come over and I wont be getting a car. Oh, lets not even get into the car situation.

  I’m not really sure how I feel about everything right now. My mom is upset she cant throw me something huge like she’d been planning since 1994. It’s hard not to bring it up but I keep it shut so she wont get even more depressed then she already is.

  So all in all, 16 will be good and bad. Maybe i’ll grow a little and lose a little weight, get rid of this ugly complexion and these stumpy legs. I could only wish.